this is me at my 21st (girl in the aqua blue) 137 days into bulimia recovery..to people who are afraid of recovery or are finding it hard, i agree with you 100% ..it was the most difficult thing i ever faced and there was times i wanted to relapse but i pushed through (its ok to relapse btw..it is part of recovery)..but 137 days after bulimia , after a little weight fluctiation, im back down to the same size as my friend on the right (who i always thought was sooo skinny)..so dont worry about gaining weight at the start of recovery, it will fall off you again :)…also..i ate ssssssssoooooooo much the last two days after my birthday..as in so much cake, sandwiches, easter eggs, and a MASSIVE roast at my boyfriends house..and i went back for seconds….and thirds…but do i care???no!!! because i dont let food control me any more……. that much…..ya i still binge a wee bit every now and then but im only human..everyone over eats from time to time…but i think its fair to say..i have kicked bulimias ASS!!!! so FUCK YOU BULIMIA!!! YOU CAN SUCK IT!!!!! so after all the junk food eating its time to start fresh again so on todays menu ….

Breakfast; Porrige with banana and almond butter

snack: Yogurt

Lunch: scrambelled egg with redonion and leeks, and maybe a wee bitta cheese ;)

snack : orange

Dinner:steamed brochollii and carrots with some grilled chicken and a wee bitta gravy

might treat myself to a bit of easter egg choccy if im feeling naughty too :)

p.s. i love thee muscle definition in my legs..just saying :)

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this is me at my 21st (girl in the aqua blue) 137 days into bulimia recovery..to people who are afraid of recovery or are finding it hard, i agree with you 100% ..it was the most difficult thing i ever faced and there was times i wanted to relapse but i pushed through (its ok to relapse btw..it is part of recovery)..but 137 days after bulimia , after a little weight fluctiation, im back down to the same size as my friend on the right (who i always thought was sooo skinny)..so dont worry about gaining weight at the start of recovery, it will fall off you again :)…also..i ate ssssssssoooooooo much the last two days after my birthday..as in so much cake, sandwiches, easter eggs, and a MASSIVE roast at my boyfriends house..and i went back for seconds….and thirds…but do i care???no!!! because i dont let food control me any more……. that much…..ya i still binge a wee bit every now and then but im only human..everyone over eats from time to time…but i think its fair to say..i have kicked bulimias ASS!!!! so FUCK YOU BULIMIA!!! YOU CAN SUCK IT!!!!! so after all the junk food eating its time to start fresh again so on todays menu ….

Breakfast; Porrige with banana and almond butter

snack: Yogurt

Lunch: scrambelled egg with redonion and leeks, and maybe a wee bitta cheese ;)

snack : orange

Dinner:steamed brochollii and carrots with some grilled chicken and a wee bitta gravy

might treat myself to a bit of easter egg choccy if im feeling naughty too :)

p.s. i love thee muscle definition in my legs..just saying :)

Finally 21 :) cakes eaten now back to clean eating and working out like a motha fucka to get in tip top shape for my party in 20 days time..i got this !!!

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Finally 21 :) cakes eaten now back to clean eating and working out like a motha fucka to get in tip top shape for my party in 20 days time..i got this !!!

fit4pr0m:

i said no to a cake today, even tho i really wnated to.

also yesterday. i really carved chocolate and i was about this close to get some from the store but i stopped myself. i said i could do it. and i really could.

ive been walking to school and back home the past 2 days! 

Good job:) your doing fucking AWESOME!!!!!Its the little things that you do that make the BIG difference:) keep it up :) xx

90 days purge free today:) didnt think i could ever do that..it seemed like i was going down deeper and deeper into the bottomless bulimia pít..i still sometimes binge a little but nowhere near.to the extreme that i used too .. It gets easier once you break through the cycle..recovery is possible :) if you struggle with bulimia please do not hesitate to leave me a message!!! I want to help you get tthrough it..noone deserves.to be a victim of this horrible ilness..it was by far, the very darkest 2 years of my life..its not a choice, its an ilness and its nothing to be ashamed of..to all eating disorder sufferers out there, your not a freak..your not alone..believe in yourself..i have so much faith in you that you can beat this..you have it in you!!!! Trust me you do!!!!!! If you ever wanna talk..please please please dont be.afraid..you can stay on anon and talk to me..i dont.want you to be alone..because i know how it feels!!! I want you to be healthy..strong and healthy..Your in control..have a lovely healthy day!!!! All my love and so much more!!!!!!!!! <3

GUYS IM 100 DAYS SELF HARM FREE

niallsbody:

OH My GOD HOW DID I DO THIS??? I DID IT BECAUSE YOU GUYS ARE SO AMAZING AND SUPPORTIVE AND I LOVE YOU ALL SO FUCKING MUCH THANK YOU GUYS FOR HELPING ME GET TO 100 DAYS CLEAN!!!

You my friend..have kicked some.fucking ass!!!!..i dont know you personaly, but i couldnt be prouder of you right now!!!! Keep fighting the good fight :) xxx

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Gym selfie :)

thefitprep:

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steadyreadyswole:

Nineteen weeks difference. Love my gym and love my new life!

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steadyreadyswole:

Nineteen weeks difference. Love my gym and love my new life!

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confidentlykatie:

dem-magnolias:

on-my-own-little-planet:

mexic0rn:

unfriendlyjewishhottie:

themaskednegro:

fuckedupgal:

themodifiedlife:

ndnickerson:

because it helps to remember this every now and then.

Also did anybody else notice that they removed the “Elton John’s AIDS foundation” logo from Miley’s picture? Fuckin’ agendas everywhere….

I literally threw a mini fit

The fact that they even touched up the woman in the BACKGROUND of the Selena Gomez pic is crazy.

I’ve said this every time it comes on my dash but please also notice that a lot of the women get photoshopped lighter.

this makes me fucking sick

is nobody going to comment on how they removed miley cyrus’s arm

like sure they made her look skinny but she’s mISSING AN ARM

I don’t get it. What’s wrong with the “before” pictures? Why do they have to change fucking eveRYTHING

Oh don’t you touch my Miranda and my miley

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confidentlykatie:

dem-magnolias:

on-my-own-little-planet:

mexic0rn:

unfriendlyjewishhottie:

themaskednegro:

fuckedupgal:

themodifiedlife:

ndnickerson:

because it helps to remember this every now and then.

Also did anybody else notice that they removed the “Elton John’s AIDS foundation” logo from Miley’s picture? Fuckin’ agendas everywhere….

I literally threw a mini fit

The fact that they even touched up the woman in the BACKGROUND of the Selena Gomez pic is crazy.

I’ve said this every time it comes on my dash but please also notice that a lot of the women get photoshopped lighter.

this makes me fucking sick

is nobody going to comment on how they removed miley cyrus’s arm

like sure they made her look skinny but she’s mISSING AN ARM

I don’t get it. What’s wrong with the “before” pictures? Why do they have to change fucking eveRYTHING

Oh don’t you touch my Miranda and my miley

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remind yourself of this Av..every single day!!!! <3

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remind yourself of this Av..every single day!!!! <3

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liturally so depressed from gaining so much weight..had a panic attack about an hour ago :/..my sis had to calm me down :( i spent 2 years trying to lose weight and now ive gained it all back plus more in 3 fucking weeks

DIDNT PUKE UP XMAS DINNER!!!! FUCK YES!!!!!!…THAT MAKES 22 DAYS PURGE FREE (AS OPPOSE TO DOING IT ATLEAST 3 TIMES A DAY..EVERYDAY)..BOOM BITCHEEES!!! HAPPY MOTHA FUCKING XMAS!!! :D

now if only i could get really back into my exercise again..anyone got any tips?? :)

#wellontheroadtorecovery :) #feelinghealthy